Freitag, 25. Juni 2010

Abschiedsablauf bwz. Ablauf der Abschied

So, this very well might be my last blog as JMG in HGW. I don't know if I'll continue posting stuff occasionally or not. Maybe. I didn't do a great job with it as it was, though. We'll see.

As I'm writing this, I'm sitting in my room, waiting for the Hausmeister (head maintainance guy) to come by. I don't move out until Monday, but when I leave my room it'll be like 6 am...too early for the apartment administration to be on duty. Thus he's gonna check over it now...make sure I didn't break anything or remove any furniture. Oh, there's the doorbell! Must be him.

Yep, Hausmeister was here. Now it's to the apartment director to get my deposit back (hopefully in cash, so I can close out my bank account and not have to wait for a transfer to go through--it's all either electronic or paper transfer here--no checks). Bank's only open for another 3 hours between now and Monday, so I'd better go now.

So, I went to the bank after I said I would. Stood in line for awhile. Remembered I didn't have my passport, and figured they'd ask for it. Left and bought some soy milk instead. Went home and enjoyed my new purchase on some cereal. Yum. Started walking back to the bank, this time with my passport. When I was about halfway there (this isn't exactly a long trip; maybe two minutes) I realized I had no idea what my American bank account and routing numbers were. To transfer my leftover German money to Bank of America, they'd need those for sure. Went back and looked them up. My third try at the bank was a little more successful. The account got closed, but they couldn't do a transfer without leaving the account open. They said I couldn't close it from afar, so I just took the money in cash. This means I've got a nice thin envelope of some very large bills coming back with me to America. Not enough to declare or anything, but let's just hope I don't get mugged in the Köln train station.

I'm starving. I think my rice might be about done. Let's go check!

Yep, by the time I got the kidney beans washed and canned corn drained, the rice was done. I eat that mixture with a healthy dollop of "El Tacqito" salsa, which is really not very good at all and makes me homesick for even the cheapest, least authentically Mexican "American" salsa. Judging from the fact that I keep buying it to put on the bean-corn-rice mixture, however, must mean I think it's better than nothing. I would definitely be up for a visit to Carlos O'Kelly's once I get back; too bad I'll be basically the only HPUMC ex-youth group member in Topeka....

This is Friday of my last week at school. The cookie-handing-out actually started last Tuesday with one class that was cancelled for this week, but it really got going on Monday. Along with cookies, there were murder mystery lessons for the 8-11 grades and a word-paraphrasing/guessing game (think Catch Phrase) for the 7th. I got lots of flowers, lots of cute cards/class pictures, a couple German flags, and some Uni Greifswald paraphernalia from the teachers. For some reason--maybe because it came at the end of a long line of goodbyes, or maybe because it sounded so incredibly sincere--but the goodbye from the principal (with whom I actually had very little to do this entire year) was the one to make me start getting sentimental. The guy has a jolly round face, nice curly gray hair, a big smile, strong handshake, and--like any German worth his weight in greeting cards--has a knack for extended, cordial goodbyes. I tell you, they put the Americans to shame when it comes to making speeches. Everybody--and I mean Hausmeister, stand-in for the apartment director, lady at the bank, not to mention people I actually know--has at the very least wished me a good trip home and all the best for my future. Germans are big on goodbyes and thank yous both, which I guess is why I've gotten so much of this leaving formality. Each goodbye is also a thank you, and each thank you a goodbye.

I've been struggling all year to learn all my students' names, and to be honest, there were a few I could never keep straight. Instead of becoming less important to me as the end approached, however, I become more adamant about making sure I knew who everyone was. For some reason, it seemed important that I remember their names, even after I've left. I guess it's a way of hanging on. A hope that I can go through the seating charts years from now and still picture faces. That when I look at the signed postcards, "Max," "Johann," "Theresa," and "Anna" will mean something more to me than looking at a list of top German baby names.

A couple days ago, or maybe a week, I was sorting out the large stack of extra handouts I had. Mixed in with the worksheets I'd made and texts we'd discussed were my notes for teaching various lessons. It was amazing to compare the most recent with the oldest. At the beginning of the year I wrote down everything for myself, and in considerable detail. More recently, something like "brainstorm on food, part 1 with partner, discuss part 2, write own opinion" was a lot more common. Maybe a couple prompt questions too. And even when I made notes, I often didn't look at them during the lesson at all. One of the best discussions I ever had with Gesine's 11th grade class (second only to the debate on capital punishment) was during a lesson on nationalism that I prepared no more than 10 minutes before class (that wasn't MY fault by the way...I never intentionally cut it closer than half an hour). Anyway, point is, I definitely made progress as a teacher. Or at the very least became more confident.

It's hard to put into words what this experience has been. Perhaps it's telling that I find it so hard to believe that I was here twice as long as I was in Heidelberg--and that, though I'm looking forward to being home for awhile, I never really had a countdown going; I could quite easily extend the stay. September was not long ago at all. But at the same time, when I think about what I've experienced since then, it seems quite a lot. I mean, yeah, it's true: I didn't accomplish everything I wanted to here. I didn't tutor anyone; I didn't make a whole lot of progress in Spanish; I'll be going back with tons of acquaintances, but only a couple real friends. But I'm not unpleased. In fact, I'm still very pleased. Other than a more-than-ideal number of days spent wet and cold, all the memories are good ones. Have I grown as a person in the past year. Yes. I should probably go on a diet when I get back. Have I grown as a spiritual being? Lernte ich besser Justine Greve kennen? Did this experience exceed my expectations and then some? Certainly. No doubt. Ja wohl. So thanks Senator Fulbright... Pädagogischeaustauschdienst... Greifswald... Alex-von-Humboldt. It's been truly awesome.






Samstag, 5. Juni 2010

(Imagine) all the people

You'd have thought I was Lord Voldemort crossing the threshold to Hogwarts the way the 7A screamed and ran away as I approached the cathedral. Made me smile. They're 7th graders, see, and despite the fact that I was going to see them perform, they're not THAT good at acting. The giggling is a big hint that the fear is fake, and while Felix routinely claims that seeing me has just ruined his perfectly good day, he kind of undermines his credibility when runs after me in the schoolyard to tell me that.

What I was at the church for--the play/dance production--was excellent, by the way. Probably the most enjoyable modern dance performance I've ever seen, though I realize that knowing half the cast made me a little biased.* I only see these kids once a week and know relatively little about their personal lives, but I feel kind of attached to them. Certainly attached enough that when they do well, I'm really proud.

Like with the Big Challenge, this state-wide English competition that some of the students participated in. Over 1,000 7th graders competing total. Alex-von-Humboldt kids took first and second overall. Yeah. Not that I had anything to do with that, but it's still cool.

It's amazing to me how often I see people I know here--at least as often as I do when I'm in Topeka, but there I had a couple decades to rack up that many acquaintances. It's a nice feeling to be recognized, especially when some of the people smiling and waving are ones who don't seem so enthusiastic when they're at school.

If I can afford to come back here before I finish grad school, I really want to. Not just come back to Germany, but to Greifswald. And preferably in the next 4 years before the younger ones graduate. I really want to see what's happened by then--what they're like, how they've changed. I want to see if they've gotten really good at English, because some of them are quite impressive right now. I want to see if Marvick is still polite and charming, and if Julia's found it hard to be religious in the former East, and if Paul got into a college in Florida, and if Johannes still has that adorable curly blond hair.

It goes beyond the kids, though. I took several roads less traveled the other day while biking and ended up in a damp, deciduous forest near my house. As I stood among the weeds and trees, mosquitoes swarming all around, I had the same feeling: that somehow I belong here. There's that cheesy song "I lost my heart in Heidelberg" that all exchange students to that city are supposed to come back singing. I did not. But here...for some reason I've felt that way from the very beginning. I definitely want to go home right now, but I know that as soon as I do I'm going to miss this place like crazy.
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*The music helped a lot, too. It was all Russian (/Soviet) with lots of Tchaikowsky and Khachaturian.

Samstag, 24. April 2010

A People's History of the Last Few Weeks

I haven't made a judgement yet on whether or not people are "basically good." I suppose it may be more accurate to say that they're "basically morally neutral," although I feel also that if morality comes from or is defined by people, it makes sense that the rules of morality are things most people see value in. That's logic, though. If I were to make the call on gut feeling, I'd say yeah. "Basically good" is definitely the impression I keep being left with.

Take the Swoggers, for instance. They took me in to their gorgeous, rustic-y cottage in a village in a valley in northern Wales. Took me out to eat at the local pub, showed me (from an archaeologist's perspective) the local cemetery. Drove me all around the area, and to the seacoast, and into England. Talked about important and interesting stuff. Treated me like a relative instead of a random girl whose college education funding was tied up with John's grandfather's charitable foundation. Awesome people. Freja reminded me a lot of Brenda Day, for the one or two people that might mean anything to...

Or take my couchsurfers. Strangers willing to drive me to Hadrian's Wall , tell me about post-USSR Lithuania, fix my camera, analyze British maternity-leave policies, joke about American politics, and stay up late watching people miss each others' points in televised religious debates. Honestly, I don't even do most of that with people I actually know.

Other people I stayed with I'd met before. Bayern with Christoph was great. I met his family and came face-to-face with the Bavarian dialect. Met his girlfriend and window-shopped for dirndls.* Watched Christoph's soccer game and went to a Southern German Catholic Palm Sunday service. I watched a guy on a German game show (successfully!) identify types of sausage by smelling/tasting the juice that they are packaged in. I saw a Greek-style temple, the confluence of three rivers, and learned that gas is a lot cheaper if you buy it just across the German-Austrian border.

Oh, the Fulbright conference was great, too. Fancy food, fancy room, free time in Berlin. Found some Mexican food, went to the DDR museum. Fulbright-sponsored parties and "music gala" that included a performance by Darius (son of Dave) Brubeck. All great. Would have been nice if it was earlier in the year, though. I met some awesome people, none of whom live anywhere near me, either in Germany or the states. And by now, the few travel days I have left are already accounted for. Oh well. Thank goodness for Facebook.

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*Dirndl. One of those dresses you see on the girls in Oktoberfest pictures.

Freitag, 23. April 2010

Silverstein, Silbermond, Mondstein, Mondschein

I walked last night to where the sidewalk ends. It's on the eastern way out of town, just beyond the Max-Planck-Institute, just on the pasture-side of Elisen Park. The latter is a shopping center--a legitimate American-style mall which I discovered last week on a walk beyond the borders, out past Lidl to the spot where the bike path turns to gravel. When I found it I was shocked. Who knew that it was there, that 2.5 acres of America on Mecklenburg-Vorpommeranian soil? It was home, but I didn't want it, and I realized that come July, I'm probably going to miss Germany far more than I've been missing America.*

At the same time that I feel pretty at home here, I'm often struck by how un-German my life is. Probably once a day, I'm taken slightly off guard by hearing German. This usually happens within 60 seconds of leaving my apartment and reminds me how much time I spend alone inside my head. If I don't have school and don't have orchestra and don't meet anyone in the kitchen, I probably won't say more than a few sentence of German per day. Today, for example. I've said "hi," "bye," and a couple numbers while counting out my change at the store. But that's it. And unless I've been immersed in German for awhile, I don't normally use it for thinking. My sound of silence is still English.

Interestingly, however, it's not just German in Germany that catches me off guard. In Britain, it was English. I was in a foreign country, so English just didn't seem right. I loved it, though. It's the most amazing feeling to not have to think at all about what you're saying. I could be articulate. I could be witty. I felt like myself, and that's pretty good for morale.

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*As a country and way of life. Missing people is a totally different story.

Freitag, 12. März 2010

Italy & Morocco Entry #4: I look local, I eat local, I go back to where I feel local

The ferry from Tangier to Algeciras was running on a Moroccan schedule and according to Moroccan advertising principles. The “1 hour” 5:00 ferry departed at 5:40 and arrived in Spain 2.5 hours later (having crossed a time zone, the clock showed the trip to have been just 1.5). Once across the border, however, everything was fully Spanish. I could finally (kind of) blend in! I could communicate with words! I also happened to have the nicest hostel room I’d ever stayed in—a private single with bathroom, though I’d only paid for a dorm. The next day I took a bus to Portugal and saw some great Spanish scenery—lots of green and lots of sun. And when I left my coat on one bus after transferring to a new one, I was able to convince the driver (though already running late) to let me run back and get it. In Spain, things were going well.

Luck in Portugal was mixed. CouchSurf host in Faro failed to contact me: bad. Ran into random friendly-seeming guy who showed me to the tourism office, recommended a nice but cheap place to stay, and toured me around town: generally good. Generally. In addition to the city’s sights, Carlos decided I needed to experience the local food, alcohol, and music. Generally I’m fine with that, but with a middle-aged playboy, it was pretty strange. I never felt unsafe, so I stayed out with him, had some surprisingly good wine, great food (some fish & egg dish, olives, shrimp, goat cheese...), and listened to a local band. I got back to the hostel around 4:00 in the morning and decided that, while everything turned out fine, that’s probably not something I should do again anytime soon. Just got too awkward. In any case, it was definitely a relief to land in Germany where you can be alone without getting accosted, where people are reserved and not only won’t follow you around, but probably won’t even strike up a conversation…especially not with a direct inquiry about your marital status. Much of the time, I have no problem with puritanical.

Italy & Morocco Entry #3: I go for the Moroccan experience

Morocco was a culture shock. I was white. I was alone. I was a woman. I didn’t speak Arabic, or French, and I didn’t come with my own rolls of toilet paper. It was a little overwhelming that first day in Meknes, as I realized what all of this meant. After dropping off my stuff at the hostel, I went out to explore the city. Soon, I had a male contemporary at my side, refusing to take hints like, “I’d like to walk around alone,” and thinking that “I’m going to go back to my hostel” was an invitation for him to spend the night. After walking around together for awhile, I invented a boyfriend and successfully started back toward the hostel alone, only to find myself suddenly blocked by a large man speaking Arabic at me. I tried to tell him in French that I only spoke English (the truth for all practical purposes), but that only got me two men speaking at me, neither one of which I could understand. I have no idea what the deal was. I just wanted to cross the street. Finally they gave up and let me pass. I bought some bread and fruit on the way back to the hostel, ate it, and went to bed. It was 7 p.m., but I’d had enough.

When I was in Meknes, as in San Marino, I felt a little like I was the only tourist. I was surprised and pleased when two French women came to breakfast the next morning, relieving me from being the only western woman among a whole soccer-team of boys who were scarfing down bread, juice, and tea, and casting occasional glances my way. Talk about feeling conspicuous. Marrakech was better, namely because there were more tourists. This meant that taxi costs were severely inflated and that there was a little more beckoning from vendors to come look at their stuff, but it was not nearly as bad as I had expected. No one went beyond a greeting or invitation to see what they had (except at dinner time in the market square, when the waiters would actually follow you around for awhile). And frequently, the vendors didn’t say anything at all. Far less pressure than the tourism-tip websites led me to expect.

Walking through the souqs (markets) here was amazing. The streets were maze-like, and you could walk for hours, getting lost and finding your way again, seeing a lot without actually stopping long to look. Since the city was touristy, I expected most people with something to sell to speak at least a little English. This wasn’t always the case. I ordered lunch by pointing and got the prices for groceries with held-up fingers. Speaking of food: it was amazingly cheap. My pointing-lunch consisted of a large sandwich, fries, and drink for the grand total of 13 dirhams, or about 1.30 euros. Just the half-liter bottle of soda would have cost more than that in Europe.

If you don’t mind long bus rides, it’s something to do on your honeymoon: ride on a camel, water the sand with your urine. Stand underneath a black dome of sky on a plane that probably extends forever; stare at the white spots twinkling through. Unless you’re an astronomer, the Sahara’s got more stars than you knew existed—more than you’ve ever seen—more than anyone could count. It’s got wind, too. Stand and feel it swirl past you, feel it brush the sand against your legs, feel the chill. Forget about restrooms and any sort of modern conveniences. Poop in the desert behind a dune. Wrap yourself in a blanket and stand by the campfire. Clap to the music. Walk away from it all and make yourself feel small, and then big—elated, and then peaceful. Feel your heart beat. Feel free.

Any long road trip requires music, and the trip from centrally located Marrakech to the edge of the Sahara was, by any modern standards, long.* We started the day with radio broadcasts in French—news, as you could tell from the intonation of the speaker’s voice. By mid-morning, we’d transitioned to local music. I wish I knew just what we were listening to, for one so I could do some research on it, for two so I could listen more myself, and lastly because I’m not going to be able to adequately describe it here. I’m pretty sure the music was “modern;” at least, it contained some “modern” elements. It often sounded like the voice was electronically distorted, for example, though it was a little hard to tell. Maybe they just have an unusual way of singing. Anyway, the modern music was also fairly traditional in terms of instrumentation and singing style. Vocal lines were full of trills and Arab-influenced intervals and harmonies. Texts were in Arabic—or maybe a Berber language. (Actually, they could have been anything North African or Middle Eastern, for all I knew.) The songs were generally quick, but long and repetitive. Somehow, they perfectly fit the scenery, fit the uphill and downhill and around-mountain winding we were doing, and helped the 10 hours to flow by pretty well. Occasionally, after we made our last rest stop and got closer and closer to the desert, our van driver (short and stocky, sweatered and stocking-capped) started singing along. Not in tune, exactly, but Moroccan music doesn’t seem to be about being in tune—at least not like “traditional” western music generally is. Nothing about the run-down villages we were driving by was perfect; nothing about the poor-looking kids and bored-looking men would have fit a soprano aria. This called for some wailing, called for some sliding on the pitch. This was real, and I was glad the music was, too.

*Of course, no comparison to the “52 days to Timbuktu” that some sign in some Moroccan town famously proclaims.

Some music examples that come pretty close to the style were were listening to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AG8NxCf5NeM (The female singer between 0:20 and 1:30)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3neKACV6-6w&feature=related (This video is weird. But the music is a pretty good example.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b8Ffq-FOFqM&feature=related

Italy & Morocco Entry #2: I see some cool Italian things

The whole time I was in San Marino, I felt like I was just about the only person in the country. The 61 sq. km-sized nation is located in eastern Italy and is not reachable by train. Relying on bus schedules scanned and posted on the internet, I missed the last connection there on the night I needed to go, so I ended up having to take a taxi across the border and into my town. I stayed at the hostel there for two nights—the only person in an 8-bed room—and had as the only sign of another human being the occasional occupation of the bathroom I shared with my next-door neighbor. San Marino's capital (San Marino) seemed equally deserted. Other than one group of Japanese tourists, some construction workers, and a few couples strolling between the three towers and along the city wall, there was hardly anyone around. And though I had imagined sunny and welcoming rather than dreary and moderately deserted, it worked. The oldest republic in the world, set up on a hill, guarded by stone walls and towers. Fog just fits.

I got to Riomaggiore in mid-afternoon and found an envelope hanging outside the hostel office with my name on it. Inside was a key and detailed directions to the building I’d be staying in. It turned out to be an 8-person, 1-kitchen, 2-bathroom apartment behind a sliding green door at a out-of-the-way intersection nearly too tight to maneuver my backpack through. It was fantastic. After dropping off my stuff and having the owner enthusiastically tell me about the room’s new paint job and repeatedly ask for my stamp of approval, I went out to explore the city and witness one of the most amazing sunsets I’ve ever seen. When I got back to the room, I discovered two friendly Canadians and a New Zealander. We talked, the Kiwi gave me a run-down on the walking paths (what trails were closed, and how she walked them anyway without any trouble), and I was just happy—still mildly intoxicated from the sunset, already excited about walking the next day. The girl from N.Z. was in the same mood. “It’s just a good day,” she said at one point, and, though I’d spent most of it on busses, in stations, and on trains, I couldn’t have agreed more.

Coming into Vernazza from the Cinque Terre city of Corneglia is positively gorgeous—houses crammed together and painted in bold pastels, bordered by grape-covered hills on one side and teal-y blue sea on the other, white waves spraying up over the dark black rocks at the base of the cliffs. I wasn’t supposed to make that walk, but was so glad I did. For the next section, though, I decided not to break the rules again. I could just hike into the mountains instead of taking the closed coastal path. Ultimately—because I eventually found my way and did not slip or get hurt or die—it was a great alternative and awesome experience. While it was happening, I wasn’t always so pleased. It started raining and then snowing as I followed a trail that didn’t seem to match my map and climbed higher and higher into the mountains. I got soaked. I was worried it’d get dark. The trails were slippery and steep and hardly existent. When I stopped thinking about these things and realized that I was the only thing high up on a brush-covered mountain (no more trees by this point) overlooking the sea, it felt amazing. Then I’d start to feel my cold socks instead and would move on again, walking even faster.

Sometimes things don’t really go your way. Getting drenched the day before two nights of night trains is an example. Or so it might have been, had it not been for the awesome inn-keeper and some friendly Frenchmen (and women) staying in my hostel. In addition to the Canadians and New Zealander, all of whom were moving out that day, there were three travelers from France, who had agreed the night before to let me keep my stuff in the room until I caught my night train. This was great, but I didn’t figure I’d actually get to “use” the room on the second day I wasn’t paying for. On the contrary, they welcomed me back and let me hang out there for several hours. My wet shoes, socks, and pants were able to dry. I avoided sitting at the station for hours in the howling wind. I got to take a shower. It was fantastic.

Every time I told someone in Germany about going to Italy, they made it seem like the trip was an escape to a tropical paradise. I guess I kind of started to believe them, so I was disappointed when I experienced snow once again in Rome. My shoes and one pair of pants were saturated within an hour of setting out to explore the city, and I went back to the train station to get a map and change clothes before going out again. The next pair of pants was soon wet to the knees and I shivered my way through some of the main sights of Rome: Trevi Fountain, the Pantheon, St. Peter’s Basilica. By the time I started walking back from the Vatican, my teeth were chattering uncontrollably and I was pretty much ready to find a plane heading home. Thankfully, the snow stopped for good around this point, and I got to see the Roman Forum and Colosseum lit by afternoon sun. That night, I slept in an actual night train bunk, and though it was really just a piece of minimally-padded, upholstered metal, it felt as if I were in the bed of a caesar.

Italy & Morocco Entry #1: I meet some people

My first Moroccan male experience actually took place in Italy. It was my first full day there, and I was ready to head out sight-seeing. I’d said goodbye to my Czech hostel roommate and her Portuguese boyfriend and was at the bus stop, examining the schedule. Enter Hassan. He passed me walking downstage right, turned around, hesitated, walked back. Line: “Waiting for a bus?” According to him, this bus stop was no good, but he knew a better one. When he realized I wasn't following him to his stop, he decided to wait with me at mine, declaring (after I’d disclosed my destination) that he was going the same place! (Uh huh…right.) I tried to think of ways to get rid of him (I’m not too tolerant when it comes to random burr-like boys who seem to have some kind of agenda), but didn’t manage it. Instead, I tried to make the best of it and turn the experience into an educational cultural one. I talked to him about Morocco and Muslimity, and (when I was able to ignore the comments on my ostensible beauty and how happy our meeting had made him) had a fairly good few hours walking around Bergamo.

I was not unhappy, however, when it came time to part at the train station and travel on alone. Or so I had hoped. A chance encounter with another young Moroccan while waiting on the platform landed me a (non-German-or-English-speaking) traveling partner for the ride to Venice. Practically, it was pretty useful (he helped me figure out what was up with our non-moving train), and also, it was kinda fun. Trying to carry on a conversation—though rather difficult, sometimes awkward, and somewhat stressful—was a unique experience. We spoke using gestures, my (extremely limited) Spanish alongside his Italian, and his cell phone, on which we could type numbers. Amazingly, we were thus able to converse about everything from my marital status (came up early, of course), to my work, his sister’s dress shop, our parents’ ages, and our respective cell phone plans. Only near the end of the trip did it get weird, as he gave me his phone number and slipped his picture to me under the table. Aw man. And you were doing so well, too.

Despite the fact that I didn’t end up doing any couchsurfing, I met a lot of people on this trip. Admittedly, most were not locals, but they generally still helped make things more fun. I spent an evening wandering around Venice with two girls from Hong Kong, looking at Carnival masks and drinking superb hot chocolate. In the Rome train station I met Adrian from Romania, who ended up being about the least-creepy male of the trip and declared his intention to name his future hypothetical daughter "Justine." In Marrakech, I met Susie from London, who had been all over the world (at least the Australia-Indonesia-Asia-Middle East part of it) and who made me realize just how little age differences are starting to make (she was 42; never would’ve guessed it). I had good luck again on the way to Tangier, where some flooded railroad tracks and an already-full bus led to me meeting Julie and Nicole, North Americans working as English TAs in France. Together, we played Crazy Eights at 3:00 am in a mostly-deserted train station (even taught the bored-looking station workers how to play, too!), drank mint tea, ate delicious Moroccan food, traipsed tiredly through Tangier, took taxis, and fought off unofficial “guides” who were as bad at getting the “go away” message as the suitors. Best of all, we went together to a hamam (communal bathhouse) for a relaxing, exfoliating, water-wasting, self-consciousness-lowering, slightly language-barriered adventure. It was great—definitely a highlight of the trip and something I would not have had the courage to do alone. Thanks Julie and Nicole! Thanks fate!

Montag, 1. Februar 2010

I am:

I miss:

the Baker music building--specifically, practicing there late at night. Flipping the lights on when I come in, playing as loudly as I want. Scratching out the high notes and hard parts at full volume, no need to be concerned that someone might realize I'm still just faking that run at rehearsal Q. Playing fiddle tunes even though I can't fiddle. Playing the piano without comparing myself to certain student-accompanist piano prodigies. With freedom to sound terrible, I often play my best.

I love:

how Germans, especially older Germans and male Germans, have the train routes/schedules in their area memorized. "You came from Greifswald? Left early this morning? Then that must have been the 7:38 Regional Express to Hamburg over Stralsund and Lübeck, eh?" Um...yes... Yes, exactly. Frequently, they know more about your voyage than you do. If you don't remember which path you're taking from A to B, you'll get the queston: "When's your train leave?" followed by "9:45? Ah, so you must be changing in Münster." Then, if they're old, you might get their thoughts on that particular stretch of track ("yeah, that's some nice scenery"), or a story about one time they changed in Münster ("it was the winter of '62 and I was trying to get home for Christmas...").

I am aware of:

being "the American." This isn't always a bad thing. People are generally kind and curious when they hear where I'm from, and since the ouster of Bush, politically oriented comments range from neutral to positive, instead of bordering on antagonistic. I don't even necessarily mind being expected to answer questions on behalf of the whole country, since talking about that sort of thing is a big part of my job here. But when someone starts telling a story about their trip to America, or mentions something that they heard happened there recently, I suddenly feel I'm being observed. "Ich bin vor ein paar Jahren nach Amerika geflogen," began the 1st clarinetist during an orchestra social event. And though he knows I understand German just fine, and though I'm sitting right next to him and can hear the storyteller as well as he can, my stand partner Kurt leans over to me. "She went to America," he half-whispers and looks at me like parents look at kids when they want them to get excited about something. ("Look, Aunt Janie's got a slide! And your cousin likes ponies, too!") If it's got to do with America, it must also be of interest to me.

I miss:

walking back to the apartments from Owens, after practicing there late at night. Especially in the winter, when it's cold.

I miss:

doing the above and not caring that's it's cold.

I didn't realize:

it was a snow day—not until I tromped through a stiller, slower-moving Schönwalde* to find the schoolyard empty and not a Fahrrad in sight. This was proof enough for me. Already up and out, I figured I'd walk around and enjoy the winter wonderland. It was perfectly still--no wind, no icey fog--and I hardly felt cold, so the atmosphere was excellent as I walked along a tree-lined path near my house—the little bit of forest that the developers did leave. I stopped at one point to look around at all the white-lined black braches and take it all in. When I started moving again, I saw a man in the distance, walking alongside his dog. What do you do when you pass the only other person in a silent forest sparkling white under the cover of snow? Where do you look? What do you say? Sometimes I'm thankful for the distraction of dogs.

I miss:

having an apartment. Having a couch, chairs, numerous places to sit. And those Baker chairs that let you rock back...those were nice.

I should like:

the hospitality. The world over, it's often southerners who get the credit for hospitality,** but people in East Germany have a decent reputation for it as well ("they don't have much, but what they have, they'll share"). I do like the hospitality sometimes, but not when it involves gifts and money. I always have something of a problem with gifts because they make the relationship unequal, puts someone in debt. And I know that when I give presents, I don't usually think about this--I like giving people stuff without a specific reason--but I don't feel comfortable on the receiving end. Even when it's little things: a box of chocolates from Carsta, a free 3 Euro ticket to the theater. It's worse when you don't even know the person. "I'll treat you!" I heard numerous times when the Greifswald orchestra went out for drinks with the Bremen choir. There were a couple of us who didn't order anything (I don't want a glass of wine, so I'm not going to spend 5 Euros on one if I can help it) and we were repeatedly asked if we were sure we didn't want anything. I can't even let someone I know buy a drink for me, much less a complete stranger.

I miss:

roommates. Having someone to get excited with and someone to complain to. People to watch movies with. I miss laughing with someone, rather than alone. I miss hugging people.

I miss:

physical contact.

I had:

plans to go ice-skating, at the outdoor rink in Stralsund. An onslaught of “winter weather”*** prevented intercity travel, however. Slightly disappointing, as I like ice skating and hadn’t been since middle school. Instead, I walked around Greifswald. Walked to the harbor. Walked out onto the frozen Baltic Sea. That I had never done. It did not disappoint.

I miss:

you. At least sometimes, almost certainly.

I was:

in the town of Binz on the island of Rügen, staying at the youth hostel where the Universitätsorchester Greifswald was holed up for a solid weekend of practicing. Practice, eat, practice, sleep, practice, eat, practice, practice, practice, was pretty much how it went, but I did have about an hour to explore on Saturday after lunch, so I put on my coat and went out to walk on the beach. The wind was unbelievable: the tall grass bordering the sand was bent over like a massive light green combover, and the waves on the open ocean were white and violent. On the shore, the wind was strong enough as it was, but on the pier where I was going directly into it, it was almost impossible to walk against. I didn't have any gloves, and my fingers lost feeling as I took my camera out to snap pictures that failed completely at capturing what I saw, much less what I felt: the cold, the wind, the ocean spray. The intensity of this thing that’s life.

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*Area of town I live in. Means "beautiful forest" but consists of highrise buildings. It's like the American suburb joke about naming streets after the trees cut down to build them."

**I actually have no idea if this is true. But it seems that way, right? Like, Spain and southern Italy? The Middle East and all of Africa? Texas? Maybe.

***...as they'd say on the news in Kansas...

Montag, 25. Januar 2010

Justine cheats and "writes" a post of quotes

So, I don't know if this is ethical or not, or maybe even legal. But I'm from an era in which students frequently saw each others' grades and teachers used sample student papers to demonstrate "good" and "bad" writing, so I don't think that posting a few anonymous highlights from the student projects I recently read will do any harm. After all, I'm not making fun of the writers! I'm sure when I started writing German, I wrote stuff that sounded like this. In fact, it's quite likely that I still do. And I sincerely hope, if this is the case, that some native Germans get at least as much pleasure out of my mistakes as I did out of these.

"Mayby in Dublin exist a little Xylophone orchestrere which is playing at some pubs, but neither I believe this really."

"In 1949 Ireland was Freelance."

"These were about 500,000 up to 1 million human."

"In this pub have already drunk Charles Dickens and WM Thackeray some drink."

"It's bigger than Ireland and has more purples."

"The London Eye has 1000 caller a day."

"Xmas's for Christmas. X is for Chris and mas is for mas. In Germany the word Xmas was the most nerved word. Some people celebrate Xmas, although they don't know why we celebrate Xmas."

"Festival is the 25th of December, the Christmas Day, Catholic (Solemnity of the Nativity, the celebrations on the even, on Christmas Eve and Holy Night, Christmas Eve, December 24) to begin."

And the best one of all: a whole half-page "report" on how St. Patrick expelled the queues from Ireland. The joke is multi-layered yet simple. Queue = line of people. Schlange (in German) = line of people. Schlange (also) = snake. So thus snakes become queues, and Ireland becomes a great place to run errands.

And then there were a few things that weren't funny for containing mistakes, but were great because of how they combined content and language. For example: "There was a big fire in the year 1666 but now the church is OK." Or the advice, "If you haven't problems you shouldn't come to Ireland." Or, my favorite, on London's Natural History Museum: "You see and experience there many different things f.e.: the carcass of a Tyrannosaurus Rex, the development of the world, a volcanic eruption." Must be one heck of a place. But I guess that's just how things are on the British Isles. Here's a final inspirational quote that is (like several of these others) simultaneously humorous and endearing: "When you look around you, you can see nearly whole Ireland. And you will have a special feeling. You can compare it with flying."

Mittwoch, 20. Januar 2010

My Christmas Vacation, Part III: My socks get wet, then they get dry again OR Everything is also not something else

When I think of the Benelux* part of this trip, I think of rain. Rain and cold. Pain comes to mind, too, as does wandering around: often lost and running late. Yet there was also plenty of wandering in a positive sense, and other memories are of dry socks, fire, painlessness, and warmth. I guess each condition gives meaning to the other.

When I got to Amsterdam, the rain and cold hadn't started yet, but the description-through- contrast began immediately. I got off the train from middle-class, white, German-speaking Quackenbrück and suddenly saw all kinds of people and heard all kinds of languages. When I'm at home in Greifswald, I rarely think about the fact that everybody else there is ancestrally German and white. Granted, there are some foreign students at the school, but relatively very few. I wrote in one of my previous statistics-oriented posts about how few foreigners there are in Meck-Pomm. And being white and ancestrally German myself, it's not until I see someone who doesn't fit this description that I think about it. I think the very fact that I notice when I see someone non-white (especially African or Asian) in Greifswald seems to only underscore the point that there aren't many such people around. Anyway, I live in a fairly homogeneous little community (and for that matter, always have), and the first thing to strike me about Amsterdam was its cosmopolitanity.

There was a lot of English in Amsterdam, of course, but what I cared about was the Dutch. It was strange to listen to because I felt like I should be able to understand it. It sounded like German....kind of....but I just couldn't get anything out of it. "Ausstiegen"** did pop out at me a couple times while evesdropping on other passengers' train conversations. It was like hearing your name spoken in a nearby conversation--hearing that familiar sound, but nothing else. Reading was much better. Reading I could do (-ish), though this was rarely necessary. As I said: lots of English.

I walked around for awhile the night I got to Amsterdam. The canals shimmered under dim streetlights and a full moon. A man sold me raisin rolls (30% off), as he watched a Middle Eastern TV show in his bedroom-sized supermarket. Children ice skated at the still-open Christmas market. I accidentally found the Red Light district. I would have liked to have walked around there some more for the sake of curiosity, but it was unnerving, being alone and approached by strange men. Whatever they were selling, I was pretty sure I didn't want to buy.

Amsterdam by daylight was nicer. The day I was there was gorgeous, actually: sunny and not very cold. I broke with my usual policy of not going to museums or taking tours and did both: a three-hour walking tour*** and the Anne Frank House. The walking tour was great. The Anne Frank house probably should have been. Some other visitors seemed quite moved--this lady in front of me kept saying "it's so sad!" And though it was no doubt interesting to see the places I'd read about, processing with a line of tourists through the bare rooms of the house (each holding a couple of small display cases) honestly didn't do a lot for me. I think I was more affected when I watched someone visit the house on a video we watched in the 6th grade. The classroom lights were out then, so at least you felt alone.

From Amsterdam, I went to Gent and met my CouchSurf host, Elke, who was awesome: smart, well-spoken, funny. We dropped my stuff off in her neat little old house (three stories, but with about one room per story, requiring a couple very steep stairways) and went walking around town, though the sun had gone down hours earlier. We went to a simple little restaurant just outside the old town where she ate and I snacked on two Belgian products: French fries and beer. This being the only time in Belgium that I drank beer, I can't really comment on the quality of "Belgian beer" as a whole. Nor am I particularly qualified to be evaluating beer at all, but I did think that the one I had was good. Online beer-raters seem to agree, for whatever that's worth.

So thus we passed the evening, talking about languages and books and sipping beer, until it was no longer evening or night, but in fact the next day. Thus some sleeping-in was necessary, and the half-day of sightseeing in Gent I had planned for the next morning didn't begin until the first half of the day was well underway. My host had to work, so I walked around on my own, getting lost and re-oriented repeatedly in the quirky Middle Aged-streets. The town was just beautiful. There were canals and narrow buildings and lots of brick and old gray architecture in various medieval styles. From what Elke said and I saw, I got the feeling that Gent was kind of like a Lawrence--a university town, more liberal than others around it, smaller, but with personality.

Unfortunately for my already-poor navigation skills, the personality was under construction while I was there. Also, it was cold and became rainy. Any of these things might have been fine alone, but when put together, I ended up walking around central Gent for an hour-and-a-half, trying to figure out how to get to the train station. My shoes were wet. My socks were wet. My pants were wet, and everything was muddy. Everything was also cold. And I was lost with no map, no signs, dead-ending tram tracks,**** and confusing (or even downright wrong) directions from people on the street. Additionally, my left ankle had been starting to hurt (apparently from all the walking, though all wasn't really all that much) and was getting fairly uncomfortable by this point. Plus, I had to drag my silly suitcase with me, through the mud, over the cobblestones, across the tram tracks, etc. In short, I was pretty much miserable.

The next few hours weren't a lot better. I finally found the station and boarded my train. Realizing I didn't know where I had to get off to make my connection, I asked the conductor. She told me a city. I thought I got off where she said to get off. Apparently, it wasn't where I was supposed to get off. So I had to sit on the platform in the cold for another hour until the next train came. The plan was to spend about half a day in Ieper, the city associated with Flanders Field/WWI, but by the time I got there, it was dark and I had only an hour until I needed to head on to my couch in Brugge. Determined to make the most of my time anyway, I trekked into the city and walked around, still being rained on, still hauling my suitcase. The city was pretty from what I saw. I'm sure it's even better in the spring, in the sunshine, in the daytime, when you're dry. After getting lost again on my way back to the train station (seriously, posted maps do you no good if they tell you "you are here" but don't tell you which way you're facing!), I was finally bound for Brugge.

And once in Brugge, the day got much, much better. My host was, once again, great. She was talkative, welcoming and friendly, and I could finally take my wet clothes off and get warm and dry.

My Brugge sightseeing time was also plagued by rain, but I loved the city anyway. It was a lot like Gent in terms of size and medieval-ness. The rain, when not too hard, was even fitting--somehow making it romantic and storybook-like. I didn't even bother with a map here--I had no pre-determined plans and was able to keep my sense of direction pretty well--so I just walked around and saw whatever amazing buildings and canals and churches and stone houses and vine-covered cafes popped up around the corner or on the next street. I got some exposure to modern Belgian artistic culture, as well: Hadewijch showed me a Belgian film she had--one of the better ones. Though bad in the past, the Flemish film industry is improving, she said, especially after the recent success of one particular domestic film (the success was mostly in Belgium, I think, but that's a start).

Until I got to Libramont, several hours south and east of Brugge, it hadn't been necessary to know any French. A lot of text was in both French and Flemish, but if Flemish was involved, I felt at least semi-confident. In the south, as I approached the French border, the use of other languages became sparse. My hope was to get to Boullion, a little town that I hoped would show me a different side of Belgium: French, mountainous, foresty, more seculded. To get there, I had to take a bus, which involved reading a timetable in French. When my bus didn't come at the time listed, I made an effort at reading the fine print and finally, using Spanish similarities, Latin roots, and inductive logic, figured out when I could actually expect some transportation.

Boullion was equally, if not more, French than Libramont, and thus just what I was hoping for. By this point in the trip, my ankle was causing me to limp and progress at a grandma-like pace especially when walking on a grade. There was a "Chateau-Fort" up on a hill, though, so, just as I had with all the buildings-on-a-hill in Mallorca, I went to check it out. It was absolutely worth the wincing. On one side of the gray stone fort's hill was the town; on the other was a river, and beyond that, more hills covered in forest. And all of that kind of clouded in fog. Unfortunately, no hilly hikes were in the cards. Maybe next time.

Arriving in Luxembourg was like coming half-way home, as German (alongside French, and occasionally Flemish) was now part of the mix. I got into Luxembourg (the city, which is the capital of Luxembourg, the country) on the evening of Dec. 31st. My ankle hurt like crazy, but I was in awe as I walked through the city to my hostel. To really appreciate this, you just need to see it, but the great thing about Luxembourg is the casemates: dug-out areas of the city with high walls and towers around them. It's like there are two levels to parts of the city. There's definitely a "city" part of the city, but when you're around the casemates and on the outskirts, it looks much more natural and feels somehow ancient (Roman-era architecture will do that). Sections of stone walls were integrated into the natural rock wall and I felt like this area was a perfect merger of the built and natural environments. Lots of trees, hills, a river--but also houses, churches, and streets. And my upscale youth hostel. Definitely the nicest one I've ever stayed in, and the setting of my solitary New Year's Eve. Ate some great soup (all you can eat for 2 Euros!) at the hostel, tried a Luxembourgian beer (not quite as good as the Belgian, I'd say), and listened to David Sedaris read to me through my iPod until the fireworks began and the calendar switched over to 2010.

One thing I loved about Luxembourg was its touristic accessibility: all streets had conveniently-placed signs, there was a series of arrows leading to the youth hostel, and the station, and a variety of other places tourists might want to go. It was classy, though, and made you feel like a guest, not necessarily a tourist. I discovered, however, that the signed path was not always the shortest. This meant I got started on a jaunt from my hostel to the city center that took me in a circle WAY AROUND the city. Would have been fine if there was something to see, but I was walking along a road in the semi-industrial outskirts of the city and separated from the forest by a wall, so it was just a 4,8 km prelude to the extensive walking I had already planned for that day. For the several days prior to reaching Luxembourg, I'd been worried, not knowing how I'd be able to keeping walking around so much. As soon as I got there, it wasn't an issue anymore: I was determined to see everything I could, even though it'd hurt. And the next day--the day of my accidental 4,8 km walk--I was pleased to discover that, though I was still limping and slow, it was no worse than it had been the day before! That was great. I found the city stunning, and I'd really like to go back some time to check out other parts of the country. For a summer hiking or biking tour, it'd be ideal.

After Luxembourg, the plan was to go to Heidelberg to visit a couple friends from my exchange semester. I arrived in Heidelberg, but no one came to meet me as per the plan. I waited. And I waited. And I waited. And I made phone calls and sent text messages. And sipped hot beverages to keep warm. Finally, I walked to/through the city myself, glimpsed my old dorm building, noted the businesses that had moved and stores that had changed hands. Ate a sandwich. Went back to the train station. By this point, it was about 6 hours after the planned meeting time, so I just gave up and took a night train to Hamburg. From here I continued to Greifswald (with a stop in the small town of Grevesmühlen, solely because of the first five letters of the town's name) the next day. As it turned out, the friend who was supposed to meet me had had a bike accident on the way to the train station, seriously injuring his leg and necessitating a trip to the hospital! In the process, he also broke his phone, hence the lack of communication about this issue. Man. What a bummer. Makes my ankle problem seem not nearly so bad. Just another example of how defining through contrast can make bad things better or good things great.

Note: Ankle's doing fine these days. And after my insurance company pays me back for the money I spent getting (and trying to keep) it that way, I will be, too. :)
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*Belgium, the Netherlands, Luxembourg. Not necessarily in that order.
**In German, as in Dutch: "exits."
***This was free, though (or "tips-only"), so it was OK.
****My plan for getting to the station was to follow the tracks of the tram that, under normal circumstances, goes right to it. These circumstances, however, were not normal.

Freitag, 15. Januar 2010

My Christmas Vacation, Part II: A Christmas List

I'm having trouble figuring out how to write this X-mas Vacation Part II. For one, that Mallorca post kinda burned me out and I just want to leave the rest up to your imagination. But a big part of the reason I'm keeping this blog is for myself, so I've got an inner conflict between not wanting to write and wanting to have something I can someday look back to. I mean, I had a wonderful time with both families I visited.* Hm. What if I made a list? That way you could see how a German Christmas celebration goes, and I could avoid writing so much! The students like when you tell them they use key words instead of complete sentences. I can see why. Here goes:

December 23rd:
-Went to the hardware store to do some last-minute shopping with the Körte children (for lack of a better term) and Fabian's girlfriend, who spent Christmas with the family, as well.
-Realized that, though I knew it in Spanish, I did not know the word for "hardware store" in German. Also realized I had never been to a hardware store in German. Perhaps the two points are related.**
-Ate Grünkohl, which looks a lot like spinach but tastes very different. Really good, especially with potatoes!
-Decorated the Christmas tree, which was real. I get the feeling real trees are still quite popular here (whereas they seem to be quickly losing ground to plastic in the US). All the ones I've seen are a little funny-looking, though: skinnier branches providing more sparse coverage. If I knew something about botany, I could probably tell you what kind of trees they are. However, I do not.

Dec. 24th:
-Slept late and woke up to Sarah doing some Christmas baking--amazing Portuguese custard things. Yum.
-Christmas Eve service in the late afternoon. There was a brass choir and a sermon and some hymns and lots of hand-shaking and "Frohe Weihnachten"-wishing afterwards. No candle-lit "Silent Night," but other than that, pretty much like at home.
-Grandparents came over for the present-opening (typically done on Christmas Eve)! - --German Christmas carol sing-along with the family, followed by a reading of the Christmas Story (from Luke) and another Christmas story that was a Christmas story, but not the Christmas Story.
--The opening of the presents. Pretty much just like at home. Only so many ways you could do this, I guess.
-Dinner! Amazing. Best of all was the lobster-cream-sauce appetizer. So good...
Dec. 25th:
-Christmas Day service. I went with the parents. The other family members were all either sick or were still sleeping, having stayed out late at the neighborhood disco's Christmas Eve party.
-Lunch with the family. My host mom's brother came with his wife and family. Food was great. People were nice.
-Long nap!
-Grandparents came to give me a present: a towel and some candy. Seriously, how nice is that? I'm impressed every time I meet them at how pleasant and welcoming they are.
-Watched some movie with Brad Pitt in it. The one where he plays Death. Not a quality film, in my opinion, but interesting, because there's this character who speaks in Dutch. It's enough like German that Sarah said she could pretty much understand it. And with the German subtitles running at the bottom, it was interesting/possible to make the connections. Preview of my Benelux adventure to come.

Dec. 26th:
-Went to Quackenbrück (eventually, after first boarding the wrong train--this was not a good trip for me and train travel!).
-Soon after I arrived, other guests started arriving. I think we got up to 23 in all. Drank coffee and ate really amazing cake. Then we had supper. Then we sat around and talked until nearly midnight.

Dec. 27th:
-Woke up in aller Ruhe (one thing I like about Germans is that--though they work hard--they seem to have a pretty relaxed attitude when it comes to things like vacations and celebrations. I set schedules and pack things tight--probably something I should work to change.)
-Went to the city museum in Quakenbrück. Saw old stuff, and (including?) a calculator just like that one that Dad used to have!***
-Talked to the old ladies volunteering at the museum. They seemed interested to meet the visiting American. "Bye bye," they said when I left. Then this guy came in and talked to me in English. I'm always confused when they do that. Answer in German to show that I speak it, or in English because that's how they started the conversation? Then I just hesitate and end up looking silly.
-Left for Amsterdam, which I guess will be where I pick up in MCVIII*** (woah! the acronym could be a roman numeral...). I'll try to make it not too long, and interesting... :)

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*I spent Dec. 23rd through 25th in Leer with the Körte family, who hosted me in high school. Sarah, in turn, stayed with us. The Quakenbrück people are distant relatives on my dad's side. I was at their house on the 26th and 27th.
**Not that I've been to a hardware store in Spanish.
***Rolf informed me that this was a very popular model in its day.
****MCVIII = My Christmas Vacation, Part III, if this really just confused you.

Donnerstag, 14. Januar 2010

My Christmas Vacation, Part I: A not-strictly-chronological account of three days in Mallorca

Dec. 19th and I was in Mallorca. Concrete interspersed with palm trees interspersed with people speaking Spanish. Looked to me like Miami. I stood outside the airport, facing what appeared to be parking spaces for busses. My CouchSurf host had told me to ride to the Plaza de España where she'd meet me. Sounded simple, but where were all the busses? Where was the bus schedule? I looked around for someone to ask, and then I realized: not in Germany anymore. Not in America. I had to think about how to ask the question--admittedly a simple one--with the minimal Spanish I'd learned. "Bus" I knew. But the "w" questions are somehow easy to get mixed up, even when they don't all start with the same letter. And what, oh what, was "where"?

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The CSer's home was practically an international house. I was never completely clear on who lived there full-time, but suffice it to say that it belonged to a bunch of exchange students, perhaps half of them American. People spoke English, or Spanish, or Polish, or Catalan (which I soon learned was what they actually speak on Mallorca). While there, I generally operated under the pretense that I didn't know Spanish--I mean, I don't really. But I was thrilled to realize that I could pick up some of what was going on. I was talking with a Polish girl, the other CSer staying at the home, about what to do while on the island, when a native Mallorcan came to give his opinions. The Polish girl spoke excellent Spanish, so I was the dumb American in the group. Dumb, yes, but not deaf. They talked about where one could go scuba-diving and where the caves were and which places were too touristy. And though I didn't get everything, I got some. Enough to give me the confidence to decide to have this little adventure in Spanish, as much or as often as I could.

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The morning bus ride to Sóller was beautiful. All around the valley were hills, even mountains, by my definition (though my Alpine-born CS host would disagree), sun-lit and tree-speckled. The highway wove through groups of tan houses, mostly stone, mostly metal-roofed. Lots of sun, lots of green. When I got off at the bus stop, I hesitated, deciding which way to go to find the town. A lady stopped me, talking in Spanish (or probably Catalan). In any case, it might as well have been Greek. I did catch the word "bus" (I got that one down!) and figured she wanted to know when it was coming. I showed her my schedule. She said something about getting a coffee while she waited. At least that's what I induced from her pointing and the word "café." What was interesting to me about this encounter, aside from the fact that she asked for information she could also have also found posted 30 feet away, was that she kept talking to me even when I clearly didn't understand her. Saying I didn't speak Spanish didn't shift the conversation into English as it had in Sweden and Norway, or later would in Benelux. Here I could use English as a crutch, but it was a shaky one.

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"Here is your room," Margarita told me as she turned her skeleton key in the lock of a wooden door in her guesthouse. As she showed me its features (indoor-shuttered windows and a radiator), she asked where I was from. "The United States," I answered. "Ah!" she said. (This conversation was in English, by the way). "You are a lucky girl!" Nothing about her was accusatory, but I was worried that "lucky" might be a euphemism for "spoiled rich," and I quickly added that I was living in Germany at the moment. This was supposed to make it better--say without saying that I had gotten my tickets for under $60, instead of $600. She was right, though. Probably about the spoiled rich American thing (which I doubt she even meant), but definitely about being lucky. Believe me, Margarita: I know it.

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It was only the sounds of nature that disturbed the peace: the low clang of sheep's bells, occasional baa-ing, birds chirping when the sun came out after the obligatory mid-day cloudiness. Hardly anyone else was out in the hills on the path to Deía, despite the beautiful weather and breathtaking scenery. And the walk was indeed breathtaking--at least, it started out that way. But after a fairly steep ascent into the terraced hills, the trip got easier and I kept a steady pace for the rest of the 3-hour walk overlooking towns and trees, passing rustic-looking (but expensive) hotels, and approaching (but not reaching) the water-front cliffs and the sea. After awhile, I got tired of listening to myself think and listened instead to selections from the top 25 albums of 2009, as chosen by listeners of All Songs Considered. Pretty much every one of them was great. And when I got to Deíaand climbed up, up, up to the church and cemetery on the hill, where even all the people six feet under were yards above anyone actually alive, the music didn't seem to break the peace. I laid down to rest on the low wall surrounding the cemetery. Breeze, sun, music that was easy-going, introspective, optimistic. Simply good. And I was simply happy.

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The third time I passed the café, I decided to ask for directions. Following the "Deía ----->" signs had simply led me in a loop, but I saw no alternative path to avoid gradually but perpetually turning right. As I started to walk in the café, a woman, maybe 50, but who looked 15 years older, was coming out. I stopped her with a "Disculpe?" "Cómo viaja a Deía?" I asked, wondering how well I'd actually be able to carry this conversation through. She gestured to the path I'd walked on earlier, muttering that there was a sign on the building pointing this out. Right. Um.... What I needed to say was that following that path didn't work--that it just kept taking you right. I needed to go straight or even left. Because I couldn't explain this (what was the word for "straight"?!), she just kept pointing to where I needed to go. "Recto, recto!" she told me, obviously frustrated that I didn't seem to grasp this simple fact. "Right!" she even translated into English. But she wasn't pointing right, she was pointing leftish, so I asked her, "Izquierdo?," but she just kept saying "siempre recto!" Finally we both got fed up with each other and I just headed off on the path again, figuring there must be some left exit that I had just missed before. And there was such an exit, which I incidentally took just as the woman was passing me in her car, continuing on the other (always right) path. I thought about this incident for a long time as I walked on, saddened that the Spanish had failed me, ashamed of the "stupid-American-tourist-comes-to-our-country-and-can't-even-ask-for-directions" opinion that the woman had of me, and upset that it was true. But mostly I was confused. I wasn't supposed to keep going right. And the woman saw that I wasn't supposed to keep going right. This at least gave me a sense of righteousness that pacified me until it struck me:recto must mean straight! I knew the word for "right" wasderecha, not recto, but somehow it didn't occur to me that recto didn't also mean "right," even if the lady was translating it that way. Oh man. So I was no longer the faultless party, but because of her mis-translation, she wasn't exactly either. Good enough; I could let it go. I continued walking, more resolute than ever to learn this still-too-foreign langauge.

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If parts of Palma look like Miami, Port de Sóller is one of those towns on the Florida keys--one developed in the 1950s to cater to tourists, but which is not so popular anymore and thus a little run-down. Not that Port isn't a popular tourist destination--all the shops and Spanish-English-German* signs are proof of this--but I was there in the off-season and it looked a little sad. The harbor lined with rows and rows of boats, though, or the mountains covered with pines and with peaks in the fog--those were gorgeous. I walked around for awhile, ran my hand through the Mediterranean, stopped to buy a Christmas present. Deciding to ignore the approaching departure of the early-afternoon bus, I walked up the hill (there seems to be one main hill in every town...usually with a church at the top) and was stunned. The view was spectacular. From here, you could see the open ocean--dark blue with gray cliffs plunging straight into the water. The overcast sky and mountain-top fog were turning into actual raindrops and, here on the hill, the wind blew in my ears, blew off my hood, whipped my hair in front of my face......I think the best word here is exhilarating.

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I was minding my own business, enjoying the fortress and town wall in Palma when I was approached by a girl, maybe 18 or 19, with a little green leaf. Not really a flower, but it was kinda cute. She tucked it in my coat and put out her hand. Not about to pay anything for a weed, I tried to give it back to her. She wouldn't take it. I'd been warned about people like this before going to France--the kind that slap a bracelet on you then make you pay for it--but she told me that all she wanted was a penny. Whatever. I figured I could give her a penny and get it done with. Before I had a chance to find one, however, a German couple came running up to me. "Schmeiss sie weg!" the man practically shouted. He was stern, serious. He looked me straight in the eyes. "Throw it on the ground! Don't give her anything!" I looked from them to the girl, confused, trying to figure out what the her scheme was. She started yelling at the man. I told the lady "thank you" and got out of there quick--too soon, unfortunately, to hear what it was the man was accusing her of. By the time I could see that the argument had broken up, I decided that she must have been hoping to find out where people kept their money, making it easier to pickpocket them later. It also occurred to me that the German couple could have been part of the plan, causing an extra distraction to better rummage around in my bag for my wallet. That wasn't the case, luckily, but it's just too bad. Something like that happens, and suddenly you're suspicious of everybody.

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You'd never guess how big it was from the small doorway leading into it. The CSer's house was cold, but cosy after she got a fire going, and I couldn't think of many houses that I had seen and liked better. Artwork all over--mostly modern, some famous (a Kandinsky print was the first thing I saw, so that sold me right from the beginning), some by a man she had a relationship with years ago. There was a living room with books, books, books--English, Spanish, Italian, German--by good authors. There was a whole shelf for Gabriel Garcia Marquez, two-thirds of one for Vonnegut. The room opened to a balcony with attached bathroom. It was like an outhouse, with indoor plumbing and artsy postcards on the walls. Her white-tiled kitchen wall had recipes and messages written on it. She made pumpkin soup and something amazing with artichokes and tuna. I had my own bedroom. And James, if you're reading this, she offered me pu erh.** Maybe some strangers can be trusted.

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After sticking around in Pt. Sóller, I got to Deía late. Later than I was hoping, at least, but on a good day, I think I could have made the walk to Valldemossa by dark. The CS host I planned to meet in the next mountain town had assured me their was a trail between the villages--even sent me a map of it, though it was topographical and didn't really do me much good. What I needed was to know where the trail began. Shyly, I walked into a youth hostel. I managed to make my question clear, but instead of handing me a map or pointing me to a path, the man at the desk just told me I couldn't go. The wind and threatening rain had continued, and he said the walk was steep and uphill, and with the weather conditions as they were, just too dangerous. Take the bus to Valldemossa, he said. Then you can walk back here (downhill) tomorrow (something I unfortunately didn't have the time to do). A definite disappointment, but I left happy. The whole conversation had taken place in Spanish.

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*There are a lot of German tourists and ex-pats in Mallorca. I'm pretty sure every American I told about visiting Mallorca had to ask me where/what it was. The Germans were just like, "Ooo, Mallorca!" And sometimes, too: "I've been there!"

**A kind of tea. Chinese and expensive.